"I Am Love" & "Solaris"

"She's a mirror that reflects part of your mind, you provide the formula."- Gordon

This quote said by Gordon in the movie Solaris brought me back to the story of Narcissus and how he loved what he thought was perfection; his mirrored image. I know that it is common in movies, books and real life to image what we want in life and how we want it. This desire is all a part of our fantasy that we create in our minds of what the perfect life will be and what are perfect relationship will be like. Every day we imagine yet another aspect of our future life and no matter what happens we have the ability to control every change in our fantasy to adjust to our moods, our heartaches, and our happiness. We control the fantasy and no one knows what the fantasy consists of or who is a part of it; no matter how large or small the fantasy is. Calvin, the psychologist in Solaris went to outer space to resolve a mystery that could either benefit human life or have a serious negative impact on human life. Unfortunately Calvin got sucked into the mystery becoming a victim of the unknown. Calvin got caught up in the fantasy. He created the wife he longed to still have, he created her as he remembered her. He wanted to fix what he could leading up to her suicide. Gordon, also a victim at one point, realized that the figures were the creation of the mind along with some rare scientific composition. Calvin is a great example of how easy it is to get lost in the fantasy.  I think as humans it so easy to forget our reality. We also have a hard time moving on and accepting loss. Calvin suffered from this, I believe that he blamed himself for his wife's suicide and he refused to move on or let go. Ultimately, her actions were her decision not Calvin's. 
 "I Am Love" was story of the ultimate desire that led to fatal ends. Emma changed and began to love Antonio. Emma's want for Antonio, in my opinion, grew through his cooking. Antonio, a talented chef, prepared many intimate meals for smalls dinners as well as dinner parties for his friend Edo; Emma's son. Emma committed adultery, but in the end had no regrets even though she lost her son. One aspect of the film I found interesting was at the end when Betta watched Emma leave for good with tears in her eyes. I think Betta was happy for her that she was going after what she wanted and loved and that there was no more secrecy. I think Betta admired her for that because she was a lesbian and wanted to tell people, but new it would not be accepted. She feared to lose the ones she loved, as Emma through all that she loved away.